i don't why i've been feeling so down. it's just like me, to feel so high, happy, energetic then when one bad thing happens, i suddenly feel super down. i dont know what to do about the situation anymore. i just dont have the energy to continue entertaining you and your selfish needs. i'm done here. no more of your nonsense. i'm through. im sick of your blabbering of how much things always doesnt work out for you. gosh. sometimes i just want to scream at you to shut up, beause you really really should. at least before someone tells you to. dont say i didnt warn you. hmmph. i really want to help you through this, but you have to help yourself first.

i just remembered that i have another doctor's appointment at the end of this month. that's good i guess. i really want to stop the sharp pains. and i want to actually take a deep breath without my lungs feeling soooo... small . LOL .

amirah just left for jakarta and wont be back for another four days. gaaah, why is everybody going on holiday ?! ish , please marianne. get a hold of yourself. sigh. well at least i can still go exercise with my brother. you know ... yeaaaaah , i feel worser than before. i cant wait for the rest to come back to singapore. somebody go out with me please ! such a sad sad sad day today. hehe. (:

alright, i have to go. fresh baked browines are calling. (: drool all you want losers ! this is as close as you are ever gonna get ! (: